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February 23, 2012
When we remodeled our house a couple years ago, we added one of my most favorite rooms in the house – our Master Bathroom. For 6+ years we had happily shared one bathroom, but now with the convenience of two I wonder how I could go back. I had so much fun picking out the fixtures and finishes for this room.
The highlight of this room is by far the walk-in shower. I have my wonderfully talented Dad to thank for that. He installed and tiled the whole thing. The 18 inch grey tiles make for easy cleaning. There’s no door or curtain to collect mold and mildew. Just every month or so, I take a big brush and scrub down the walls and floor.
The two vanities are made to by the same manufactures of these Potterybarn ones. Except mine cost $300 each and I got them at Costco. They have great storage under the sink and in the baskets below. We store towels, blow dryers, toilet paper and more in them. And they have beautiful marble tops that are easy to clean. The mirrors above the sinks are handmade embossed tin, they are from a home interiors store (Mango) that I owned a few years back.
It’s a really spacious bathroom. Above the toilet I hung an antique beduin rug that I bought in the souq in Sanaa, Yemen. It adds a nice burst of color and softens the room a bit. I made the roman shades, you can see my step by step instructions on how to make them here.
The L and J are from Anthropology (but are an older version that are no longer available), the three wooden pieces are automotive part molds, and the towels are Potterybarn (no longer available).
February 21, 2012
Breast feeding is definitely one of the most heated topics when it comes to having babies and raising them. Olivia is my third and last child. Denali is 10 and Dylan 8, when we got pregnant with Olivia, everyone asked if the pregnancy was planned. And yes she was planned. I had known for about five years that I wanted another baby. I couldn’t explain it but, I just knew I wasn’t done. It took five years to convince my husband, but that’s another story for another day. Olivia was my baby to enjoy every last moment with knowing I would never get to experience these things again. I had nursed my other two babies until they were a year, so there was no doubt in my mind that I was going to nurse Olivia as well. I’m not saying it was easy to nurse my other two children, but the hard work was totally worth it.
I am going to attempt to share my emotional journey of wanting to nurse my baby and not being able to. After Olivia was sent to the NICU at birth, I tried everything possible, and I mean everything, for more then seven weeks to successfully breast feed. I finally decided that this was not going to happen for Olivia and I. It had become a full time job: pumping, nursing, bottle feeding and then pumping again. I wasn’t getting to enjoy this time with my precious baby. I couldn’t hold her while I pumped. I had cried every day over this struggle. I cried that awful cry that dehydrates you because you shed so many tears. The kind of cry that just wells up and your body shakes and you can’t hold it in. Not just the misty eyes, much uglier then that.
I had wanted this so badly and never dreamt that I wouldn’t be able to nurse my baby. I was frustrated that no one could help me. I was angry that I had failed. This was supposed to be the most natural thing. I should be able to give my baby what she needs. What kind of a mother was I, if I couldn’t perform the simple task of nourishing my baby. This just wasn’t my plan. I hadn’t made the decision not to nurse my baby. I felt like someone else had unfairly decided this for me. I wanted someone to blame. The NICU nurses, even if they were just doing their job, were mainly to blame. But, blaming didn’t help, it didn’t fix the problem.
I wanted to be the one to feed my baby. I didn’t even want anyone else giving her a bottle. I selfishly felt like that was something that only I should get to do. I was her mother. I felt like if someone else could give her a bottle, then did she really need me?
For seven weeks I tried everything humanly possible. I talked to LLL, visited lactation consultants, tried every tool, trick, milkmaker cookie, and nipple shield out there. I finally decided that this was out of my hands. The pain of this loss was not over then though. I continued to cry for another seven weeks everyday. I remember standing in the bathroom, the usual crocodile tears dripping from my face, and me telling my husband that I just really wanted to be done with the sadness and tears. I wanted to be over crying. I had been grieving this loss for 3 months. I’m not saying I wasn’t enjoying my precious baby. I was loving every moment with her, but I was just feeling robbed of the special time that you can only have with your baby. I was grieving a loss.
For the most part I put on a happy face when people asked about the nursing. But, my husband and my mom knew how sad I was and how emotional I was. People tried to console me with comments like, “Well, she’s healthy”, and “I didn’t nurse my babies and they are perfectly fine”. These words didn’t help. I saw strangers at the mall nursing their babies and I would lose it. I feared that Christmas would be miserable because we were going to visit my husband’s family and my sister in law had a baby three days after me. I thought I was going to burst into tears every time she nursed her baby. I wanted that to be me.
Olivia is a healthy four months old now. Even writing this now has brought back the tears. A couple of weeks ago I found some breast milk in the freezer. After feeding the last of it to her, I cried again. I know in my head that we are bonded to each other and she loves me no different then my other kids did, but my heart still kind of hurts. It’s one thing to mentally understand something and a totally different thing to emotionally get a grip.
I feel like I must not be the only one out there that has wanted to nurse and can’t? Can you relate to my pain? Why is breast feeding so emotional?
February 18, 2012
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February 17, 2012
So, my dad’s birthday is rapidly approaching and really don’t know what to get him. Dad’s are hard to buy for, actually men in general are difficult buy gifts for. Girls like things that are just cute. You can’t give I guy something and say, “I just thought it was so cute, so I got it for you”. Especially if you have a manly dad like I do.
So, I’ve made a quilt for all three of my brothers. Joash’s quilt has retro fabric, Joel’s is modern and clean, and Josh’s is a masculine grey log cabin. So, I think it’s time I made my dad a quilt (shhhhh, don’t tell him). I’m becoming an expert at making quilts for men. It’s a lot harder to find fabrics that appeal to men. A lot of quilting cottons have flowers, and I don’t think that screams manly.
So, here’s the fabrics I’ve picked out so far for Dad’s quilt. I’m loving navy blue lately and how can you not love it with green. Now for a quilt design or pattern. Any ideas friends? I’m open for suggestions. I’m also working on a quilt for my new nephew/niece, It’s going to be a chevron pattern. Maybe something in stripes?
February 15, 2012
Here’s a quick and easy Valentine’s dessert that tastes totally decadent and unique. I’ve made this dessert quite a few times this winter for my family. It’s one of the desserts that you can whip up late at night when you have a serious chocolate craving.
Mexican Mocha Chocolate Pudding
1/2 cup sugar
1/4 cup cocoa
1/4 cup corn starch
1/2 tsp. cinnamon
a pinch of salt
2 1/2 cups milk
1 tsp. vanilla
1/3 cup Kahlua
3 Tbsp. butter
In a sauce pan, whisk together the sugar, cocoa, corn starch, cinnamon, and salt. Add the cold milk and whisk well. Add the vanilla and Kahlua. Turn the heat to med-high, stir continually with the whisk. Bring to a boil, making sure to continue to stir, cook until the pudding thickens (it should coat the back of a spoon. Whisk in the butter until it is totally melted.
Transfer to serving dishes while it is still hot. Serve warm or chill and serve with whipped cream. Because this is a cooked pudding, the alcohol in the Kahlua cooks off, so I serve this to my kids. It still has the yummy warm Kahlua flavor though.
February 13, 2012
One evening this week, my kids had I had fun with some clay. We played with Crayola’s Air Dry Clay. I made these five hearts for all the members of my family. What are they for, you might be wondering? They are for cute. Simply for something cute to sit on a side table in a little bowl. Just some Valentine’s decor for our little family.
After the hearts had dried for 3 days, I painted them with acrylic paint. All I needed was red and white painted. I started with the red heart and then added a little more white each time to the paint when I painted the next heart.
Last year I made these shirts, this meal, these lunches, these marshmallows and these cookies. It was fun to look back at my posts, but I do have to say that my photographs were not so great – I think I’ve made some improvements in the quality of my post photos.
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February 10, 2012
One of the best parts of our home is the original claw foot tub in our bathroom. Until 2009, this was our only bathroom. When we first moved in we retiled the floors, installed a new shower door, painted the outside of the tub and resurfaced the inside of the tub.
This room is now in need of a fresh coat of paint, and I’m afraid it will probably go a shade of grey (I just can’t get enough of that color). My dream is to put a curtain surround around the tub and add the fixtures for a shower over the tub (something like this one). Then we could take out the corner shower and have a double vanity with more storage. This is one of my New Years Resolutions for 2012.
February 9, 2012